Happy Tuesday!
A week has passed since last Tuesday and definitely NOT 2 weeks. No weeks were missed at all. It’s amazing how true that is.
It’s also December 5th. Happy birthday, Walt Disney!
Coincidentally, my family just got back from Disney World a few days ago. Ada got to meet Anna and Elsa and I got to meet some stormtroopers and drink some blue milk. The experience was expensive and somewhat mindblowing.
(And now I have just decided the title of my biography will be “This Book is Expensive and Somewhat Mindblowing” and it will cost $500.)
Particularly, the Rise of the Resistance ride was amazing. It’s better if you don’t know what you’re in for so I won’t tell you what happens. In fact, I’ll lie about what happens. There’s definitely a bunch of penguins and you get food thrown at you. It’s awesome.
Anyhoo, let’s talk about the subject of this newsletter (because I had to put one in the subject line).
I was just not feeling motivated to write this issue, and I’m feeling less motivated to work on all the videos I have to work on. I have a lot of them going:
A.I. is planning every meal for a month.
Learning (training) to do the splits
Running 5K Everyday
No Smartphone for a Year
I started wondering why I’m feeling this way and I concluded that I miss the way I used to just poop out randomness on YouTube. (Not literally, that would be too obscene. I did that on the dark web.)
And I had little regard for my overall “purpose” or my usefulness exceeding just entertaining people with silliness.
How did I get to this place where I’m caring about “purpose” so much more?
Well, probably because that’s what people on the internet seem to want. People don’t click on things unless they feel like it will have some deep impact on their lives, including me (because we have SO many options, better pick the best one).
Before I made the “No Added Sugar” video in 2018 my channel had been on a slow decline for many years to the point where I pulled on my old resumé to update it. Just being goofy wasn’t enough anymore.
But also, I think I wanted a change at the time, too. I was bored of pointlessness.
But now, I’m trying to be honest with myself about what I want NOW. And reducing the importance of everything I’m making is very appealing.
For instance, I’m much more likely to get a newsletter out every week if I can just write silly nonsense (At least start that way mentally. I tend to end up finding some inkling of meaning while I write. This post included.)
Maybe this mentally is coming up because of 4 days at Disney. I had a better time than I expected stepping away from real life for a while. I was reminded how awesome silly nonsense can be if you just let yourself enjoy it. Self-improvement be damned!
Anyhoo, I think I’ve talked about this before. This push and pull of meaning vs pointlessness is my constant battle, I guess. If I swing too far the other way I know I’ll get bored of pointlessness, too.
I gotta remember my own advice I often bring up in videos. Life goes in phases. You can try one thing for a while and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then eat tacos and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back and then go back.
Happy Birthday, Walt!
-Craig
Craig, what I reckon you should do is make a documentary about the history of Wheezy Waiter in the style of wheezy waiter. But get your clones to do it, so you can just focus on the silly nonsense.
Dare to be pointless!